Tuesday, August 30, 2022

Yesterday comes back


 Keira slowly looked up. Wishing dearly that it was not true. This was not Azar.the recognition stated out loud and clear. The intense gaze which she had always loved, staring again at her. It had been almost 2 decades. The longing humming again in every nerve of her being. Destiny you cannot be so callous, she called out. Azar was accompanied with two other friends. Unknown to her. Once the introductions were in order . She came to know one of them had also come down for the conference. Incidentally Azar was heading it tomorrow. How she wished she could sleep in late tomorrow morning and miss it. Wish she was back in school where she could use the age old excuse of being unwell.

The evening passed pleasantly enough. It was time to draw it to a close. She was dropped back by her friends. Making plans for the next evening. 

Keira got into bed tired. Sleep was nowhere close. That evening came to haunt her again. How her live had changed. How she had matured over night. The responsibility immense. The tears came back . Flooding her being. Unleashing the dam of memories which she had held for long. 

Finally she slept in a restless fervour. Suddenly woken up by the loud alarm. She woke up with a nagging headache. God! Not today.

She went in for a cold shower. To awaken her senses. After gulping down two strong cups of coffee, her headache was a little better. She popped her headache pill too, just in case.

Dressed immaculately in fawn . She looked crisp and business like. 

Today she had to take a little longer with her make up to camouflage the dark circles.

She was just in time for the conference. Seated next to a distinguished looking person. 

Azar walked in just then. Her breath stopped. He looked 

“ Drop Dead Handsome”. Wearing a steel grey suit which fitted him to perfection. So business like. 

Be definitely had an aura around him now. Soon the conference was under way.

It was a long day. Keira was exhausted. She just wanted to sleep. 

Just then she remembered, she was meeting her friends. She wanted to go to a chilled out place. Hardly in the mood today. 

She came back. Slept for an hour. Soaked herself in the hot water with her favourite scents. 

Dressed casually in jeans and a bohemian shirt kaftan top. She looked relaxed . Her hair wind blown.

She actually did feel better. Seeing her friends her tiredness all vanished.

It was a beautiful evening and a gorgeous place. 

As they were reminiscing about their school days, they heard a familiar voice wishing them.

Ohh God! Not here again.

It was Azar and his friends.

Luckily this time they were more of them. So they didn’t join them.

Keira was suddenly very sleepy and tired after dinner. Hardly able to keep her eyes open.

Just as they were leaving.

Azar got up and came to her. He took Keira aside and said “ Please call me “. Quickly sharing his number he bade them goodbye.

Keira was still not ready.

She fell asleep.


Thursday, August 25, 2022

Do not wait to be kind


 The power of kindness is immense. The true value is never truly understood by the giver. The receiver knows what it does. Never hesitate to speak a kind word, bless people with your beautiful Sunny smile. Your shining positivity, a gentle reminder to someone that there’s still hope. Your heartfelt compliment. That long hug when someone needs it badly. The wiping away of tears on a tear stricken face, misery ridden soul. The power of the moment of true kindness is priceless. 

Every person at some point does need it. Who does not want to hear a sincere kind word spoken to them? Who does not want a kind soul by their side, when they are in the throes of grief. Believe me! That kind gesture of yours will never be forgiven till that person’s last breath. Your kindness shall always be remembered! 

There is no heart which has not been scarred,

No eye which has remain dry eyed,

No being which has not been turmoiled,

Tormented,

Grief has touched each!


So make your presence felt and known for its kindness!


Good Morning beautiful souls!

Have a beautiful day ahead!

Keep the faith!

Keep the candle of kindness burning bright!

Wednesday, August 24, 2022

I love you yesterday

 


She stood at the window of present! Watching the shadows of yesterday playing again at the window pane. The tests which she had held at pay, silently trickling of their own accord. She saw her younger self laughing uninhibitedly. Laughing uncontrollably, tossing her hair in a careless shrug. Her shoulders not stooped by the weight of present troubles. Where had the joy gone?

Keira  wondered! How happy her youth and childhood had been. The day the sunshine of her life had ceased to breathe. A part of her had died too. She never got it back. Today she just stood wondering, what more world life want from her. Her father had died. Given the responsibility of running the household, the business, looking after everyone. Today Keira stood alone watching the beautiful sunset from her hotel window in Switzerland. Her conference had gone well. She was meeting her old school friends for dinner. She thought of resting a while. Suddenly exhausted beyond words. Keira took a long nap. Woke up refreshed and excited. She quickly got dressed. It was a beautiful, balmy evening. Her friends were going to pick up and take her to a place where there was a fair going on. A beautiful restaurant adjoining that was booked for the dinner after the fair. 

Keira wore a beautiful peach flowy  dress . Her feet adorned in golden flats. She wore her favourite hoops. Her make up subtle. Her hair wind blown. After ages there was a relaxed air about her. 

She had just came down to the lobby, when she heard her name being called out excitedly. Saira and Ferya were here. She was hugged at once by  both of them. 

So excited to see a part of her yesterday. An important part. She was so happy . Suddenly all the cares of the world did not exist anymore. 

The fair was beautiful. Keira picked up some Turkish bowls. She found a pretty pair of ear rings. It was fun. 

Her appetite was built. She was ready to tuck into dinner. 

Just as she was sipping her mocktail. She heard a familiar deep voice speaking from right behind her. Everything stilled in her. It could not be . After so many ears . No way!

Unfortunately it was!

She slowly turned and was looking into the grey gaze. The one which had rested on her lovingly, once upon a time. 

Not again!


Saturday, August 20, 2022

Never Feel Shamed


 In the age of shaming,

Every emotion experienced,

Is often felt a burden!

How you look? How you feel? You are entitled to it all. It’s a part of being “You” . In the ears of Perfection, each gesture is perfected! Then! where does the real you or the inner truth dwell? 

Why in this age of race, everyone just longs to be only accomplished. I cease to see true humans, only perfected models. Your mind, should be perfect, your dwelling has to be spotless, you have to be beyond perfect. Why? Why cannot the messy, imperfect me be accepted. Why do I have to be proven the best, work 24/7. Is resting and some”Me Time” not my entitlement. Sitting in solitude, treated like an offence or one of the deadly sins. 

Why am I made to prove myself competent time and again? Why? 

I want to be my messy, true self. Each pressured today and stressed beyond the right measure. Children to adults made to pass the tests repeatedly. 

The number game. The number game for the body, for the mind for the soul. Each put on the altar of measuring up. A yardstick ascertained!

Then where shall the inner, true you go?

Where is the solace to feel truly when each is curbed, curtailed, put in a cage of expectations?

Where?

Where is the mind without fear?

Where shall the being find,

A restful abode,

For the body, mind and spirit?

Where?


Monday, August 1, 2022

August Goals


 Hi Dear August! The month of monsoon. Each morning you pour your heart out! Is it a sign for us to do the same? Unleash and empty ourselves just like you do each morning. What a wonderful way to ventilate and free ourselves. Make space for the new. Hoping for the best!

Thought of some August Goals

Hoping for a more disciplined fitness routine

More long walks in the open!

Deeper connect with the Nature

More gulps of positive breaths!

More special finds along the way

New stories to unfold with magical moments 

More happy moments and sweet induced joys 😄😄😄

More coffee ☕️ and more books!

Hopefully more adventures!

Laughter and meaningful conversation to rule big time.

Time for things that matter.

Anger and chaos to be kept at bay!

Fruits and flowers to decorate your table!

Keep yourself hydrated!

Breathe!

Smile!

Meditate!

Pray, Pray and keep praying 

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